It feels like a personal failing that i can't be there for my friend in their time of need. There are other people who can be, but I want to do better, even if I don't have to. Maybe that is toxic. Either way, i have a lot of work to do on myself.
It hurts to see a friend get hurt. Sometimes it hurts so much that you hurt your friend out of fear that they will get hurt again. I need to take a breath and reconsider my intentions and how I want to support the people I love